utterly disappointed

i'm so pissed, so utterly disappointed with this person in my family. u r nothing but a burden to this family. a real burden. a good-for-nothing. someone who isn't worth living if i want to be mean.

time n again, chances were given n time n again, u promised to make full use of the chances n yet time n again, u chose to let us down. why? u think money comes easily? it's hard-earned money, u BLOODY HELL! we worked so damn hard for the money n yet when we want to buy something, we have to think twice n consider again and again before we spend the money but u.. spend it like one drinks water.

i used to be able to use my own money freely but because of u, what i want to do becomes limited n i feel restricted. n yet u dun give a damn abt this family. the mess that was created is just so big that maybe only with the death of u, things may have a full-stop to it.

u claimed to be working n bringing in money for the family but i dun see the money. what i see is u getting money every now n then. it's not as if the family doesn't give u your allowance. if u used up your allowance, it's your bloody own problem; why should u get more then? this family is burdened because of u, u understand.

want to do something today but can't. just because of this mess u created a long time ago. the repercusssions of it. u enjoyed but we, your family have to suffer because of u imbecile.

i want to have nothing to do with u anymore. period.