outing!

went to JB with gy n yz today. was raining heavily. spirits were a bit low cos of the heavy torrents. went down some more when i heard something else over the phone. so was quite moody along the way.

dun know why whenever i hear that u r sad or what, i would feel sad too.

dun know why things r turning out in such a way.

no one really understands me i suppose. maybe i should just pretend not to know anything. maybe i should. it's affecting me. adding on to the fact that my grandma is now a bit not-in-the-correct-state-of mind condition, it's rather unhomely. i'm rather afraid to be come home. in fact, i dread going home. but still i have to cos i got to take care of my granny since i got a blockhead for a maid.

it's scary. it's not interesting to be in my position. how long more must this last? forever? if so, i rather die. for i know, i would go mad one day with this type of pressure n suspense in this family.

i hate quarrels. i hate noise. why can't people live harmoniously? why must people sin? why must U sin? I HATE IT!