the student

time now 2348. i gave up studying for the night so i decided to blog since it's been a long time since i had an entry. it's the first day of school after the cny break. n there's no band prac today. so sian. like nothing much to look forward to. so spent the time studying. studied until the headache is here again. ha.

cny is getting boring as the years pass. this year is the most 'special' n boring. somehow i feel that adults stuff should not affect the youngsters. as adults, u all should know how to handle the bloody problem. in fact, if u r not so f***ing timid of things especially your wife, things wouldn't have come to such a state. n to another person, dun be so kpo with my family stuff including our religion lah. dun bother us to put it bluntly. we never interfere with your family pursuing another religion that is different from us so it's quite common sense to do vice versa.

sometimes i feel my family is being too kind-hearted to their own siblings. it doesn't pay to be so kind-hearted. yes, help when it is needed. but extensive help may turn out to be a sort of harm. it doesn't go both ways. people dun extend their hands to us when we r in trouble u know that? in fact, i'm quite disappointed with the extended family. not including the cousins(youngsters). it's the adults n it's directed to 2 people in the family.

how i wish i can call a family meeting like how i do for project in school. sit down at a table n trash all the f***ing things out. how i wish things were not to be at this stage. if things were simpler, that will be good. as humans grow up, we become more n more unhappy because we will being burdened with more n more power n responsiblity.

maybe we should learn from the infant who has no worries whatsoever n is contented with his life.

ha.. i was planning on a not-so-sad-entry but in the end, i guess... all the thoughts came rushing out n it became words on the screen.