the student

i'm made to feel like everything is my fault where i'm not the cause of it
i suppose seeing that kind of face is normal
i should have gotten used to it
but i didn't

i'm also your son
but not a word of hi or what
i bet u won't know what am i up to unless i say
for in your hearts, u only yearn for the return of someone
i'm not jealous or what
just dun show me the built-up anger

it's like... i can't make a single mistake.
for someone had set the precedence
n the consequences are there for reference
it's like walking on a tightrope
where the walker may fall anytime, to his death

i'm really scared to go home these days.
or rather, not literally these days
but the feelings grew more intense during these hols
for home to me, is really a place of bad memories

when will the day come where i can look forward to going home?
when will the day come where i can spend freely without worrying?
when will the day come where all these worries will leave me?
i suppose that's the day where i'm supposed to meet the Lord