the student

i dun know whether is it me or my mum
but in my mum's eyes, i'm useless
unable to accompolish simple things
is it just miscommunication?
there's hasn't been any coversation lately though
and any conversation will somehow result in she's not happy with me
i also dun know what the hell is wrong
she can get angry for no good reason
is it PMS? i suppose so?

these few years, many things i haven't been telling them
settling it myself
without guidance for a long long time
dun see the need to inform them too
might as well

they say i live in my own world
but they never tell me anything
n how would i know anything?
it used to be good
but it became bad
and when things become bad, it normally becomes rotten
and when it becomes rotten, it would be discarded
however, things can't just be discarded. not so easy

seriously i wonder how long the cycle will go on
i really really want a new life
but i suppose the package will always be there
resigned to my fate, i suppose i just have to pick up the pieces when the time comes